Things are arranged for you. (6-10-19)
I was so excited after so many years (since 1979 when I was given a bible, little do we understand what’s going on. I am grown up my cousin, who is a pastor of a church, sometime when I looked at him at the side, I always got the excuse to stay away. I recall it really what we call plugging something from the air, and he believes, not that he wants to, but I guess, instead of feeding me, protecting me, I need to run out for my so called “experience.” When I call him, it was never a blank number. Rescued me so many times where it’s time I hide away, but again he the only one that give me the helping hand “unconditionally “. Maybe, we are family the standard he set so strict that I know I can’t keep up with.
Followed Andy to church today, a friend that I know for so long too, “he told me just this few simple words, come with me to church and will see “how God can help you.” The next day, I agreed. The day when I suppose to be in church for the first time with this dear friend, I fell ill, and you can imagine what’s going on, something is deterring me. I started to pray since then. The words flash one by one, and many things flashes, I will make sure with my knowledge and skills, I hope I can help another person. I will leave everything to God, he knows and will shine the path for me. He knows I will be able to accomplish the things he assigns, even I am weaker now. He knows with this I will perform better, and the faith is so complete.
Honestly, I don’t kind of understand Chinese too well, but that was the few verses that flash by which I have read. Overall, I felt that the service is created for me, when they are talking about the Ten commandment. My tears keep rolling, but it’s that flashes that what happened all those years. But I think I am so proud of myself, “When a colleague told me, Vincent, Are you a Christian?”
It cleared many values of what I think. Now I am greedy, I want my wife to Baptise together. Amen.
I am so thankful that, when I withdraw to the corner, I feel the warmth of the family. This is what the riches is about, not in value of material things but the amount of warmth each time, the tears roll. As I believe the other things, I will be provided.
Life gets a bit more occupied, but with more meaningful things. Yes, I am indeed chasing my success online, however, you know I will do what I feel that very day, doesn’t matter. Must feel good. And I always do.